Tell It Like It T-I-S, or Self-Discovery Through Designing Women

I watched 10 episodes of one of my favorite shows, Designing Women, today. It used to air like 4 times a day when I was in college/working my first job. I taped it so that I could watch them over and over again. Now I’m watching it on DVD. 

I used to admire Julia Sugarbaker the most, hoping that if I ever found my voice I’d be like her. However, I’m realizing that I’ve kind of turned into Suzanne. It’s the whole self-centered thing. I sometimes have to bite my tongue so that I won’t say exactly what I’m thinking to people- friends, even, the way that Suzanne does. In my head, I shoot straight from the hip and call it like I see it. If I said everything I thought, I’d be a much bigger dick than I already am.  It makes me think of my friends, many of whom, I’m truly sorry to say, are terminally fucked up. This is why I’m a horrible person: I can talk shit for hours and hours about other people. In fact, once I hate someone, I love nothing more than discussing what a useless piece of shit they are and it never gets old (SEE: GOLDENBOY). Yes, I’m a small-minded gossip. As soon as someone else goes into their usual “My life sucks” territory, I shut down. The thing is, that used to be me. And there are friends who I feel pretty much all I had in common with was our misery. Nowadays, it’s all I can do not to say, “Look I know your life sucks. Your life is always going to suck. Because all you ever  do is TALK ABOUT HOW MUCH YOUR LIFE SUCKS. So can we please stop talking now, please?” 

And only a tiny little part of me feels guilty about this, because I discovered it’s pretty much a waste of time to worry too much about how anyone else is feeling or what they are thinking. See? Like I said. Self-centered.