January 2010
between the headphones i wear by day and the earplugs i wear to sleep in i’m going to be deaf by 40.
December 2009
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excuse me while i break my own heart tonight.
You wish that just once, someone would be chasing after your heart instead of the other way around. Why is it that you are always the one who is wanting, never the one who is wanted? And left wanting, you grow more and more heartbroken. You are a sad woman of 35. A hundred years ago you’d officially be an old maid. It would be even more tragic. The writer seems tragic lately. There’s an air of...
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I wish that just once someone else would be chasing after MY heart instead of the other way around, as usual always wanting never wanted.
i am officially on a heartbreak vacation.
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Hello Vicadin
10 worst Muppets →
for my money the top 2 at least are dead on.
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“all in all another fall won’t even make a dent / the world will turn, at...”
– Aimee Mann, “crash and burn” from ‘Til Tuesday’s Everything’s Different Now
handsome, charming & he makes purty music *sigh* →
i secretly listen to his songs and then swoon.
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Are these questions even anonymous? If so…you’re good.
Mr. Gunderson, you have NO idea how good I am…
what more do you want to know??
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would you please read the letter that I wrote? And in your response..say what you need to say.
i don’t need to read the letter. and i feel like you know what i need to say. i feel… a psychic connection to you somehow. you are someone i would like to share an evening of mozzarella sticks with.
what more do you want to know??
finally remembered to buy earplugs. did not get sleeping pills because really who needs the temptation?
James Ellroy just said “I’m the greatest crime writer who ever lived.” He needs to stay away from my DVD commentaries…
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Do you ever get so caught up in your hopelessness that you find yourself frozen in place, in the middle of a busy street, with the urge to issue a bloodcurdling scream from your lungs? So that you can feel real? So that you’ll be noticed and people will stop looking through you? No? Just checking. Will you share those brownies? That is what inquiring minds really wish to know.
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Spending today trying not to cry in public
I want to go back in time & find Clay who told me: It gets better. And I want to punch him in the fucking face. Because it doesn’t. Ever.
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Playing Lady Gaga @ work. Please kill me now.
I work with insane people.
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all in all another fall won't even make a dent.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
Maybe the Xanax is serenity. Maybe you should have listened to Doctor Lessing when she tried to prescribe it instead of bristling at the suggestion. Too many people, too many of your friends walk around with a temporary calm; Anxious or upset, “I’m going to take another pill.” “I took two.” You woke up thinking that if you punched...
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giving in: i am stuck in new york, stuck crushing on people who will never be interested in me, stuck working in a retail job that i’ve come to hate. the best i can do is try to get somewhere with my writing and make a motherfucking escape.
birdwatching: a serial →
I bet if i did the math i’d find that i spend 75 percent of my life wishing myself out of existence.
Just put in request for a wk off. NEXT wk.
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